The adrenal gland does a lot.
I've been quite late in even realizing the most basic things life has to offer me. Until a few weeks ago, a majority of the significant events were followed by me cribbing about them. However, I've been taught to get past all of it.
As recent as last night, I screwed a great day up. Now there's this guilt building up (wow, is that new?) and that reminds me; I sometimes laugh over how I handle my bad-guilt-filled-days. So after I realized I screwed something up, well it was already bed time so I got under my blankets without even brushing my teeth or doing the rest, more like I wanted to escape from the gigantic waves of guilt gushing all the way down my heart. I woke up today finding myself to be at the worst state of mind (which is completely the opposite of what I was expecting) and now there's n o t h i n g I can do about it. Oh adrenaline, screw you.
Nonetheless, I think I'm quite elated. Not for screwing up, but for myself, for the people around me and for those wonderful things happening.
ЁЯНж
As recent as last night, I screwed a great day up. Now there's this guilt building up (wow, is that new?) and that reminds me; I sometimes laugh over how I handle my bad-guilt-filled-days. So after I realized I screwed something up, well it was already bed time so I got under my blankets without even brushing my teeth or doing the rest, more like I wanted to escape from the gigantic waves of guilt gushing all the way down my heart. I woke up today finding myself to be at the worst state of mind (which is completely the opposite of what I was expecting) and now there's n o t h i n g I can do about it. Oh adrenaline, screw you.
Nonetheless, I think I'm quite elated. Not for screwing up, but for myself, for the people around me and for those wonderful things happening.
ЁЯНж
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