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No more hush-hush

On attaining adolescence, the body and the mental state of people goes through certain changes. That's it. That's all that the textbooks in India teach children when they step into a brand-new phase of their lives: a phase of emotional instability where they need knowledge. In order to make suitable decisions based on their sexuality and to fulfil their new-fangled desires, they need legitimate sex education. We have now come to a point where people chose to cater to their sexual desires. Sex, for Indians, is treated as no more just a means of reproduction, a taboo since the 19th century. I (another teenager who has certain desires as an adolescent) was never provided with sex education— similar to most Indian teenagers today. Like almost everybody else, I attained my knowledge about sex and sexual urges through the web, and of course, through “hush-hush” discussions with peers. Naturally, the more something is hidden and concealed, the more exciting it seems. My parents were...

Marhaba'a

It's like the never ending spiral. Because guess what, fear is the biggest fear? I feel terrible, I just don't comprehend why. Me 4 months ago v/s me now isn't even me. (Wait, did that make sense?) HOLD ON, WHO AM I? All I know is, I need someone who would listen to me, who would just be there. Things have changed. I can't go to anyone anymore just out-of-the-blue bringing in my life's issues. It all happened so quick, part by part resulting in this jumbo anxiety , yes. Started off by me going through a bad phase for almost two months till the end of last month (what is this, my diagnosis slip?), continued by my foot buzzing like never before followed by my palms sweating terribly when I'm afraid of I-don't-know-what followed by my digging my nails into my palms when I get a panic attack, usually at school followed by a buttilion more things. I don't know what I'm really fearing, I just know what the possibilities are. So if someone would ask...