Hallelujah

Fear.
Fear of fear.
Fear of being feared.

It's powerful (understatement). However, when you do overpower your own fear (or even try to), you are a true warrior, buddy.

"I'm in love, but now I'm scared"

"Scared of what?"

"Of losing my significant other"

This monologue has played in my mind throughout (ugh). Now basically, when you're loved immensely, you never question whether you deserve it or why you're even receiving that love. On the other hand, when you're hurt you immediately think that what's happening isn't right.

Strange.


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